tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-53347918622912688292011-04-21T13:05:10.687-07:00\noreply@blogger.comBlogger101100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5334791862291268829.post-39844090260266052652009-04-12T02:58:00.000-07:002011-02-11T11:31:48.245-08:00It has come time to close this blog down.<div><br /></div><div>I will leave it up for just a day or two longer.</div><div><br /></div><div>Everyone who asked for invites to the new blog should have them by now.  </div><div><br /></div><div><span style="color:rgb(102, 0, 0)">It will be public though - and has been renamed.</span></div><div><span style="color:rgb(102, 0, 0)"><br /></span></div><div><span style="color:rgb(102, 0, 0)">You can find it at </span><a href="http://beautyamongsttheweeds.blogspot.com/"><span><span style="color:rgb(0, 153, 0)">www.beautyamongsttheweeds.blogspot.com</span></span></a></div><div><br /></div><div>Bear with me whilst I continue to tweak the new blog a little.</div><div><br /></div><div>Bless this blog and all who sailed in her.</div><div><img width="1" height="1" src="http://res1.blogblog.com/tracker/9104985824828342941-4399508477893113321?l=bluemountainsmary.blogspot.com"></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5334791862291268829-3984409026026605265?l=bluemountainsmary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>\noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5334791862291268829.post-63126965027007742862009-04-03T04:47:00.000-07:002011-02-11T11:31:48.208-08:00<a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_hBv9lOEqo9Q/SdXROooJ__I/AAAAAAAABIQ/2c5f5OHYkPw/s1600-h/200809Sep_9890.JPG"><img style="display:block;margin:0px auto 10px;text-align:center;width:320px;height:214px" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_hBv9lOEqo9Q/SdXROooJ__I/AAAAAAAABIQ/2c5f5OHYkPw/s320/200809Sep_9890.JPG" border="0" alt=""></a><br />Was horrendous.<div><br /></div><div>Exhausting.</div><div><br /></div><div>More lies.  You'd think I might have learnt by now.</div><div><br /></div><div>You see I was not a great lawyer  but I was completely dogged at research.</div><div><br /></div><div>And in my inability to let this all go I found out more. </div><div><br /></div><div>I know enough now.</div><div><br /></div><div>Still....cannot....let go .... of 20 years. He has been my best friend that long.  </div><div><br /></div><div>Best friends don't do that to each other though.</div><div><br /></div><div>Blossom - thank you for the beautiful quilt.</div><div><br /></div><div>Seed - please know that you will get your photo soon.</div><div><br /></div><div>Joke - truly I am OK.  Or will be.</div><div><br /></div><div>Elizabeth - thank you for the music.</div><div><br /></div><div>Duyvken - I still get tears in my eyes thinking of you returning after you had left - bearing that chicken and the potato bake.</div><div><br /></div><div>Eleanor - my joy bird...my friend.</div><div><br /></div><div>Kim - your jam!  Because god almighty I am so not losing weight!</div><div><br /></div><div>Shula's absolute understanding of my confusion.</div><div><br /></div><div>Suse's gentleness.</div><div><br /></div><div>The emails, the texts, the phone calls from all of you  and  the friends in real life who have stood by me.</div><div><br /></div><div>My mother.</div><div><br /></div><div>My children.</div><div><br /></div><div>Blessed in so many ways I am.</div><div><br /></div><div><span style="font-style:italic">joy will return - it will return</span></div><div><span style="font-style:italic">it will seep through the crack'd arteries of my heart</span></div><div><span style="font-style:italic">it will blaze in my eyes.</span></div><div><span style="font-style:italic">it will shine in my face.</span></div><div><span style="font-style:italic">it will be reflected in the faces of my children.</span></div><div><span style="font-style:italic">it</span></div><div><span style="font-style:italic">will</span></div><div><span style="font-style:italic">be </span></div><div><span style="font-style:italic">mine.</span></div><div><br /></div><div>Just bereft right now.</div><div><br /></div><div><img width="1" height="1" src="http://res1.blogblog.com/tracker/9104985824828342941-6921642134784964762?l=bluemountainsmary.blogspot.com"></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5334791862291268829-6312696502700774286?l=bluemountainsmary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>\noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5334791862291268829.post-54677056968721748052009-03-31T15:53:00.000-07:002011-02-11T11:31:48.195-08:00<a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_hBv9lOEqo9Q/SdJ1m4X-MUI/AAAAAAAABII/Tnddz0k0J8Y/s1600-h/200828Aug_9326.JPG"><img style="display:block;margin:0px auto 10px;text-align:center;width:320px;height:214px" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_hBv9lOEqo9Q/SdJ1m4X-MUI/AAAAAAAABII/Tnddz0k0J8Y/s320/200828Aug_9326.JPG" border="0" alt=""></a><br /><div>After some very intense grieving last week my mother decided to fly up from Adelaide.</div><div><br /></div><div>The bliss of having her here.</div><div><br /></div><div>Thank you for the emails, the texts, the beautiful visit I had with Duyvken, Kim and Eleanor.</div><div><br /></div><div>I am awash with sadness and tiredness.</div><div><br /></div><div>Having said that - I am far more resilient than I would ever have dreamed.</div><div><br /></div><div>Thank the universe for that.</div><div><br /></div><div>And I am contemplating my new blog (which will be public for all those lovely people I still owe invitations to- I will make sure you receive one).  I have re read this blog and it contains too many coincidental dates and times and memories for it to be something I want to keep.  The other blog will be closed too - it has served its purpose in allowing me a place to vent and to absorb the wealth of support I received in the first weeks of anger and pain.  However initially - and for obvious reasons - I will keep the new blog private and then open it up and let it take its own way into this world.</div><div><br /></div><div>It will continue to carry my photos.</div><div><br /></div><div>You know what - fuck it - choose joy!<br /><div><br /></div></div><div><img width="1" height="1" src="http://res1.blogblog.com/tracker/9104985824828342941-519652951059182672?l=bluemountainsmary.blogspot.com"></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5334791862291268829-5467705696872174805?l=bluemountainsmary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>\noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5334791862291268829.post-35033752498521570942009-03-25T08:40:00.000-07:002011-02-11T11:31:48.178-08:00I am considering closing down this blog altogether and starting a new public blog elsewhere.<div><br /></div><div>You'll see why at the other place.</div><div><img width="1" height="1" src="http://res1.blogblog.com/tracker/9104985824828342941-3085649320271018981?l=bluemountainsmary.blogspot.com"></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5334791862291268829-3503375249852157094?l=bluemountainsmary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>\noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5334791862291268829.post-20228266326184966672009-03-22T05:45:00.000-07:002011-02-11T11:31:48.167-08:00Warning - I'm grumpy!<div><img width="1" height="1" src="http://res1.blogblog.com/tracker/9104985824828342941-4220272101531201490?l=bluemountainsmary.blogspot.com"></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5334791862291268829-2022826632618496667?l=bluemountainsmary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>\noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5334791862291268829.post-69895097639005972712009-03-18T23:41:00.000-07:002011-02-11T11:31:48.156-08:00<div><img width="1" height="1" src="http://res1.blogblog.com/tracker/9104985824828342941-3181758061807169792?l=bluemountainsmary.blogspot.com"></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5334791862291268829-6989509763900597271?l=bluemountainsmary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>\noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5334791862291268829.post-77969983823598334592009-03-17T04:59:00.000-07:002011-02-11T11:31:48.143-08:00Also <div><br /></div><div>I have received many emails and in my current fog I would really appreciate it if you haven't received an invitation to the new hen house that you leave a comment here so I can send an invite. </div><div><br /></div><div>I apologise if you haven't yet received an invitation if you have already asked for one- it is not deliberate believe me.</div><div><br /></div><div>I am reading blogs - and thank everyone again for their support.</div><div><br /></div><div><img width="1" height="1" src="http://res1.blogblog.com/tracker/9104985824828342941-6784167316835636504?l=bluemountainsmary.blogspot.com"></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5334791862291268829-7796998382359833459?l=bluemountainsmary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>\noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5334791862291268829.post-4378138008753725572009-03-15T04:04:00.000-07:002011-02-11T11:31:48.126-08:00Updated again.<div><br /></div><div>I know I have more invitations to do and will get those done on Monday.</div><div><br /></div><div>Alice - thank you for your beautiful text.</div><div><br /></div><div>Everyone - thank you.</div><div><img width="1" height="1" src="http://res1.blogblog.com/tracker/9104985824828342941-821751077421441841?l=bluemountainsmary.blogspot.com"></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5334791862291268829-437813800875372557?l=bluemountainsmary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>\noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5334791862291268829.post-67326347809304748092009-03-13T22:46:00.000-07:002011-02-11T11:31:48.028-08:00<img src="javascript:void(0);" alt="chickens02.jpg"><div><img width="1" height="1" src="http://res1.blogblog.com/tracker/9104985824828342941-2171537264491466981?l=bluemountainsmary.blogspot.com"></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5334791862291268829-6732634780930474809?l=bluemountainsmary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>\noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5334791862291268829.post-18092476018043890032009-03-13T07:03:00.000-07:002011-02-11T11:31:48.006-08:00Right so - the new blog is up and running.<br /><br />It needs a new name.<br /><br />It has been updated.<br /><br />I will update here so people know that I have updated. If that makes sense!<br /><br />I will not post a link to it and ask that others do the same - and there was some good advice about not putting anything in sidebars.<br /><br />The fact of the matter is that it is not intended to be a place of vitriol and nastiness. It is a place to get some things sorted out in my own mind and a place where we can have some laughs and perhaps share a bit more forthrightly that we can here. <br /><br />I owe some people some invitations and will do that tomorrow.<br /><br />My heart hurts. Life truly is bizarre. See you over at me other place.<div><img width="1" height="1" src="http://res1.blogblog.com/tracker/9104985824828342941-1464088535406560040?l=bluemountainsmary.blogspot.com"></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5334791862291268829-1809247601804389003?l=bluemountainsmary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>\noreply@blogger.com1